Category: Kid Stuff

Okay, so it’s January 8, and I’m getting up the first post of the year. Aack.

Frankly, the break has had its issues. The lack of regular schedule is rough on some of us, and the constant presence of all of the children is difficult for others of us. The holiday itself, though full of love and fun and presents also has all kinds of old traditions (and at our house, religious celebrations) that make the newest member of our family feel like he doesn’t quite belong–and that may take years to fix, if it ever gets fixed. Hanging out with extended family is wonderful, but age, gender & language barriers combine with unfamiliarity to keep the kids from including their newest cousin as fully as they embrace B & K. J feels that keenly. He’s started to protest whenever we suggest hanging out with cousins.

On the other hand, after a particularly spectacular tantrum Christmas Eve, we’ve settled into some better patterns at our house. There’s a lot less violence and destruction and a lot more cooperation with household tasks. All three children have become more consistent about doing their jobs (so they can get screen time), and our house feels like less of a disaster area because of that. Plus, the kids are getting along a bit better. We may not be totally through the woods, but they at least seem to be thinning.

Monday the kids go back to school. B & K are quite excited about this, but J seems worried. His schedule changes this semester (he’s got four classes starting tomorrow), and I though he’s got several classes he is interested in, being in a totally foreign-language environment for that long will be exhausting. (This I know from experience.) Pray for peace and an extraordinary ability to concentrate, and that he’ll make some friends that will make the trouble worthwhile for him.

It’s hard to believe there’s only a week to go until Christmas. It has been a bit of a rough month, though not nearly so rough as, say, August.

J. has started up an English class at school in addition to his PE (and he’s scheduled to start two more classes in January). Though the extra time seems small to me (and to his siblings), I know from personal experience that even a couple of hours in a foreign language environment can be exhausting. Thus far he’s handling it very, very well.

Home is another story, though. At home we’ve continued to have flare-ups with some regularity. It’s not clear why that’s happening–perhaps because of the increased pressure in school, perhaps because of new things we’re trying (a movie night; going to a Chinese church in Boulder), perhaps because we’ve reintroduced limited screen time; perhaps because of holiday traditions J’s not used to; perhaps because we had out of town family visiting last week (It was sure nice to see Mary Kay and Gary); perhaps because Craig and I have been doing better about setting limits, and J is pushing back. Whatever the reason, home life has frequently been difficult, and all three kids (and both adults) are finding that hard.

Frequently B and K say that they want their “normal” life back–and I totally sympathize with that. Change is hard, and not all change is for the better. Hopefully, though, we’ll at some point get to a normal that we all (Craig, me, J, B and K) at least find tolerable.

We’ve entered the Advent season–that time of year when in our family, we try to do a family devotion to help us filter out the noise of the world and remember the real reasons we celebrate Christmas.  We light some candles, sing some songs, do a bit of reading, and, this year, let the kids open a window on their Advent calendars.

J. hates this–all except the calendar bit. Perhaps he dislikes the change.  He certainly takes issue with the singing.  At the beginning of the week, he took to throwing and breaking the candles and such, and responding even more violently when we’ve refused to stop.  To keep things safe, we’ve had to move our little celebration to the parent’s bedroom a couple of times, but we’ve also had a few days when we’ve been able to do it all together, and that makes us hopeful.  Still, the week has felt long and stressful.  We hope that next week will be better, but we know it could be equally bad or even worse–J. is adding a new class at school (learning English will probably eventually help him feel like life is better, but at this point, an extra class is nothing but an unwelcome change.)

 

It has been a bit tough to be thankful this year because we’re all so stressed out and tense, but when we stop and think about it, there’s lots to be thankful for.  We’re all healthy, at least in body.  We have a warm house in cold weather and good food to eat.  Craig has a steady job doing work he finds meaningful (most of the time).  K. is thankful for ballet, and her performances this weekend have gone quite well.  B. is thankful for the stuffed harp seals that have been a comfort to him in a time of great stress.  J. says he’s thankful for money.  And I–I’m thankful that all of them are part of my life (even J. most days), and that we’ve learned to help J. calm his tempers some, and that God has given us strength and extra love, and that so many of my friends and family have stepped in to help us weather this time of difficulty in our lives.

It’s still hard, and we still need you all–but it’s good to take a minute and remember how very much we have to be thankful for.

 

J. turned fourteen about a week ago.  His anticipation prior to the event was intense.  Together we planned out a big dinner to celebrate him–good friends, good food, fun games, and, of course, presents.  But the unusual attention seemed to also stress him out, and anytime presents or other things weren’t exactly what he had hoped for, his disappointment was intense.  This led to a tense, angry weekend with increasing violence that ended with a call to police Tuesday morning after J. punched me in the lip.

Since then, we’ve been working more intensively with our therapist and counselors to make sure that we are providing J. the love and direction he needs, but also the limits necessary to help him achieve safer, more appropriate behavior.  We think we’re making some progress.  At least I feel like I’m more in control of myself, and more able to be the parent.

The other major thing going on with kids right now is ballet–K. is gearing up for a Nutcracker performance next weekend.  She’s very excited about her three dancing parts (possibly four–she may have to step in for another little girl).  If you’re local and interested in seeing the show, get in touch with me before Tuesday (the 22nd), and I can probably get you set up with tickets.

J. has been looking forward to Halloween for weeks now, and I’m afraid that the reality didn’t quite live up to his expectations, but he did get out and collect about 250 pieces of candy.  He counted.  B. also counted up his stash and made a detailed log of exactly what kinds of candy he’d received.  Not sure why, but he feels it’s important to keep this record.  K. seems content to just eat her candy.

J. got lots of compliments on his police officer outfit, and a few people thought B. and K. also looked pretty good (Sherlock Holmes and an Autumn Pixie).  I’ll get pictures up when I can.

It took a long time to settle from all the excitement, but B. & K. eventually went to bed Monday night.  Despite not getting to bed until very late, J. managed to get to school on time on Tuesday, and the remaining days this week.  I think it was a bit uncomfortable for him at first to go without the translator, but he seems to have settled to it somewhat.

He’s also (usually) expressing his anger in more appropriate (less violent & disrespectful) ways, and he’s continuing to spend time hanging out with the rest of us playing games and fishing.

We’ve had some bad moments.  J. took off from a grocery store last Sunday, scaring us all quite a bit.  And then on Thursday, B. got quite sick, and at one point J. got in his face, and I made J. leave the house with Craig–and J. thought I was kicking him out permanently.  It took quite a while to straighten out that misunderstanding.  But once we apologized for making him think we were getting rid of him, and reassured him that we want him in our house, he seemed to settle down a lot.  And he’s still harassing Ben, but not quite as much.  It may help that they’ve each come up with role-playing games that they’ve convinced the other to try out.  Turns out they have more in common than either of them was willing to admit before.

K. is gearing up for performing in the Nutcracker with her ballet studio over the Thanksgiving weekend, so she’s had lots of rehearsals, and that has added a bit to the overall stress, but I think she’s excited about performing and glad to have something about her life that hasn’t totally changed.

When I look back to where we were a few months ago, I realize that we’ve come a long way, even though many days are still very hard.  I’m hopeful that at some point we’ll reach a new normal that will be less miserable for everybody.

So, with school starting for J, we had a bit of a rough week.  School itself seems to be going well, with J. liking the sports they’re playing, even though football is new to him.  However, at home, the first several days of the week, J. was acting out.  It came to a bit of a crisis on Wednesday with a lot of throwing stuff around, and some attempts to kick down doors to areas J. wasn’t supposed to go in.  However, J. refrained from hitting anybody, and though he made a big mess, most of it was readily fixable.

On Thursday, we got some help from a translator to talk some about expectations, and some of what life in a family looks like, and explain some of the things J. doesn’t understand.   We also started a small reward system for when J. meets these expectations, and we’ve seen him working very hard to do that.  He’s asking for permission before tearing up the yard and talking to us about what’s upsetting him instead of cursing us out.  And that’s all to the good.

Plus,J. has started wanting to be hugged like the other kids.  He jumps up in my arms and wants to be carried around (You can pray my back is up to the task–he’s a pretty big kid.)  Yesterday he wanted to be rocked for a bit.  Occasionally he’s started listening instead of making fun of me when I’m praying for him before bed.  And this morning, before school, he gave me a hug and said goodbye.   Almost like he’ll be glad to see me when I come pick him up from school this morning.  Or maybe not.  We’ll see.

I got lots of hugs from B & K this weekend too, on account of it’s being my birthday.  B. even gave me a new, improved hug pass–good for unlimited hugs and a couple of kisses a day!

We suspect there are still lots of hard times ahead, maybe even this coming week, but it feels a bit like we may have turned a corner.  I have a little hope that’s true anyway.

This week was hard on everybody because the dog is going to stay with Grandma Pookie and Papa Buzz for awhile, and they came to pick her up on Thursday.  (Though J. is much gentler with her than he was at first, he is still behaving inappropriately some of the time, and when I intervene to release the dog, he has been slapping or punching me–so the dog is going away until he has stopped slapping and punching for at least a month, and is willing to obey me on things related to other people and animals.)  But the change has made everybody emotional.

In addition, B. is heading out to Outdoor Lab next week, which we hope will be a good experience for him, but he doesn’t want to go, so he’s upset about all the preparations.  Plus, the rest of us will miss him, so that also makes people here a bit emotional.  Plus when we need to buy things for B., J. gets jealous.  I think he figures any love or money we spend on B. or K. leaves less for him.  That may be true for money, but not so much for love–but he doesn’t believe we’ll save any for him, I think.  Of course, B. and K. see that we’re spending lots of time and attention with J., and even getting him foods and things that we don’t usually get them–and though we explain that it’s because he is lacking so much and having such a hard time finding food that feels at all familiar, they also feel we’re showing extreme favoritism.  Everything is shifting for all of them, and they’re all pushing for more time with parents and more resources.

Which leaves the parents pretty exhausted.  And that reminds me, that we do need to get J. in school, and the school seems in no hurry to help us with that, so I need to get back on it.  (They say they want to help, but they’re being very, very slow about it.)

Still, when we look at where we are today compared to where we were two months ago, or even one month ago, we’re doing way, way better.

Good stuff:  J. asked for a hug yesterday.  We’ve been playing card games or hide and seek or foosball every day this week.  We started fishing.  (Haven’t caught any fish yet, which is very frustrating for the children.  Plus I’ve spent all my time untangling lines, which is less fun than actually fishing.)  There have been 2-3 times this week when J. has gotten very angry, but still managed that anger without resorting to violence.

Things are getting better–mostly.  I know this because we’ve had reasonably pleasant family dinners every day this week.  I know this because all the children in the house have been in bed and asleep by midnight every night–without too much of a fight from any of them.  I know this because I’ve been able to spend a bit of time with each kid this week that wasn’t direct crisis management.

On the other hand, J. has punched me a couple more times (not as hard as before, and not in the head, but we’re still taking it seriously), and I’ve said I will not teach him any more school.  Trouble is, the local school doesn’t really want him there either, so we’re in a kind of limbo, trying to figure out what to do next.  There’s supposed to be a meeting soon with some district people to figure out what’s best for J.  Maybe next week we’ll have more news.

B. and K. are both finding our household situation stressful, but they’re hanging in there.  We’re finding outside adults they can talk to.  They’re doing well in school (last week’s conferences showed that).  B’s teachers surprised us by telling us about how kind and empathetic he was.  We always get the “brilliant student” comments, but this was new, and very nice.